Brotherly love is endless 1 - Back in Bridgent

I'm listening songs by Deathstars and I'm sitting above my homeworks. Oh that fucking Physics! I don't understand why I need to know it. I sigh and pull out from the workbook the photo with my older brother Matt. I always want to tear it into pieces, when he says that he's going away when I have a chance to see him. While the picture was taken I was sitting in his arms. I think wasn't older than six years on the photo. And it's my only photo with him.

Mother always raging, but I try to be calm. I have to lock my room and when I go to school, 'cause my mother is turning it upside down again and again to found some my own money . I take that photo under school books and I start to wrote my homeworks again. Eventually after a while I just sweep it from the table to the ground.In here it's just only an impede.

I turn on the computer and I wait till it starts. I have AC/DC on the screen. I love to make some crazy things at home. I hope that Matt is gonna went out in here. I wait a while until the Firefox starts and show me the homepage. I'm probably crazy. Everyone is talking about me like this and I don't know why. By the way, I don't care about it. I'm the only metalist on my school. Oh yeah. No one understands me, Teachers judge me a lot 'cause my brother is well-known person and I have a lot of troubles with it. I turn up Yahoo and AIM, if Matt was there. It brings me a hard time. He such got a time to type me 'Hey, how are you?' and it's end of the conversation.I hope that he will not have tour concerts too much this year.
Freak. How he should have a time for his girlfriend? I don't totally understand it. I don't blame her if she found someone else. Finally, he's here! I don't waste time with saying 'hi' and I start telling some news. It's quite surprising when he wrote back, if I have some free time to talk on Skype. Actually he phoned me in while that I have logged in. "Hey Jess! I'm glad to here some news like this from you. It's interesting to talk with someone that you haven't seen for seven years." He smiled a little." Oh yeah, I'm glad too, that I can hear my older brother. You're somewhere in Bridgent when you want to talk with me?"I answer with  annoyed tone in voice. I know that he hates it, but today I don't care.
"Yep, I'm in Bridgent... Do you remember where is the recording studio?"He pauses for a moment. "Sure, that I remember it. Matt, what's going on?" I start to play with pen, 'cause I'm getting a little nervous. "Nothin special. But I miss my family. Don't you want to go in here? And we have a concert in few days. You know that... After dad's death..." I sighted and I start to trying to not gonna weep. " Please, don't talk about it Matt...I don't have time for it and even the mood. I must do something to school and I don't want it sodden... So you want me to see you in studio?" He sadly answers 'yes'. " Ok, I should be there in hour. But I warn you, if you gonna talk about it, I'm gonna slap your face." I sadly laughed and carp him a little. So what. He knows me.